I feel like such a fucking failure right now. I could scream. And shout.

Coward, thats me. Not pacifist, COWARD. Damn me.

But you know, even the strong have their problems. Everyone has their fucking problems to deal with. Its only people like me who have to shout it out to the world. Bloody idiot.

Kill...
But I don't know how to complete that sentence. Myself? You? Everyone?

Confusion, insecurity, weakness makes me angry.

furious in fact.

and only two people know where this heads. One... doesn't care. and the other wont be able to stop it. The rest will never know. They can't. because if they find out...

i cannot let anger override my logic. anger burns white hot, but my logic will be implacable. ice.

freezing winter solitude overcomes blazing infernos of the heart.

and that is how it must be.

must.