A little self-indulgence

ok here's the deal with this post. The following paragraph is written completely in one go, no editing. For the heck of it.

shadows dance in the fading light of dusk and i wonder if the idioglossia of youth can ever be restored to us. there wasnt a way out of it no, there was nothing that i could have done in the past present and future that could have changed the outcome of loss sorrow and anger this cycle that threatens to consume me. is it supression or acceptance in my mind as i listen to the sounds of the jackal? succumbing to futility is not my way there is nothing which i will not do to change my fate. I am not going to lay me down to die in this circle of conspiracy consuming me. My mind is my own even though i have let you in and nothing you say or do will change that you are the only one not invited to the nightfall in my life as i strike the candles that will light my way. i know that there is a way out because i have seen the light of the exit but now its gone as you pull me back into the madness i thought i had left behind no i wont succumb to this phantom prison of lies deceit and you. you wont be near me any more i reject you i cast all memories of you into the abyss deep below leave and never return youre pathetic pathetic pethetic leave and dont come back leave me alone you. only you.

judge not, lest ye be judged :)